Friday, 25 July 2008
Hello everyone! Dad bought a camcorder. Isn't that cool? Hah! Yes it is!
I HATE MY LIFE!
I really do.
I did not expect anything to be this way. From the day I was old enough to think about the future to where I am right now, is so not the place I want be. I want to be the girl who loves doing whatever she does, and did not want to lose it all. But now, I cannot seem to find that girl anymore. I lost it all one by one. I no longer seem to love what I am doing now but, it is more like hating it more and more each day. I want to be that girl again. I regret everything. From the beginning of my secondary life. I may be happy on the outside but I am just a girl who is stuck in the inside, figuring her way out of her darkness. People always say that in life, there is always choices. Well, I choose to hate my life and IF ONLY killing myself is possible, then it would be possible. But people always say that hurting yourself or running away from the problems/challenges is not a way to solve it. People also always say that in life, there is always the ups and downs. Just be strong and live life the way you want. Well, I want to do that too. But I am just too weak.
I am so sorry but, I HATE MY LIFE! I really do!
The only thing that keeps me hanging on Earth is my friends who is always there for me, to cheer me up and make sure that my smiley face is on. ((: I love them so much and I really appreciate them all! I really do! ((:
** Can someone book me for study date! Cause I really want to study! I want to do well for my finals! I really do! I am really scared now! Trust me I am! ((: Please Please Please! ((: **
