Saturday, 5 July 2008
SORRY NICOLE! For the things that happen during Math lesson the other day. SORRY EVERYONE! As I have been so moody lately. I am SO SORRY!
Well, it is really weird that one moment everything was fine and the next, it was not. I have been feeling sad lately. Realizing and observing everything that is happening around me. True friends are all that I need. I do not need all the drama. My thoughts right now is complicated. I think of one thing and another thing will appear in my mind. There is just so much to share. But, I cannot decide who to share it with. I have lost trust in a lot of people. Seriously! A lot of things have been bugging me and it sucks. Ever since school starts after the holiday, I suddenly started hating school and my life. I cannot figure out why. Every time when I am in school, I wish I was somewhere else. Seriously, I do not know why but being around you guys makes me feel invisible now a days. Maybe because of the way you guys acted around me make me hate school. Well, forget it. I am totally going to forget it all. I totally have no idea what to do but to forget about it all. When I am not myself, you guys hate me somehow. When I am myself, you guys still hate me somehow. What exactly am I suppose to be then? Help me out here! Well, bottom line is, I hate it all! From school all the way to my entire life, I hate it all! Remember the day we talk about how irritating this certain person was, well, you are just becoming like her. Realize that? I do. But forget it; I am not going to hurt anyone but myself. Let me hurt myself all day because I just love getting hurt. You guys can hurt me too cause I do not care cause as I said I just love getting hurt and I just have nothing in life to do but get hurt and cry all day rite. Well, ya! By the way, I certainly have no idea where this is ending up to. Only I can understand what I am going through. So ya, I am going to put all this aside and tuck myself in bed at night and think it through again and cry like I always do.
So, lately sucks. Today, 1st brother and 4th brother shared money and ordered pizza. So yummy! ((: Going to finish up physics homework by today, start art research by tomorrow and math revision on Monday. Monday is Youth Day! No school! GREAT! Ouh. Haha! All we had as a gift from school for Youth Day was songs played during recess. Ridiculous? Haha. DUH! Haha! How I wish I no longer have to go to school. I just finish up my art holiday homework and now, there is already art coursework thingy to do. *Shake Head* Well, I am out. By the way, I made up my mind. I am not going to upload anymore music after every post. Imeem is getting on my nerve. So, I am just going to put a song on my blog when I have the time. Now, I am out to do physics homework.
