Saturday, 10 January 2009
Hello everyone!
Last three days have been a very inspiring day. Adam Khoo’s Workshop is the best! Leroy, Candice and Andrea, they are the most amazing people ever. Inspiring, Eye-opening, Fun and everything else that can describe them. They have given me motivation, the courage and strength and everything else.
I was lucky. Lucky to be sitting there in that room, listening to every single word they say. For the very first time, those words/advices, goes inside me and never comes out. Those same words/advices, my mom and dad told me at times. I am on my own now. Everything depends on me and no one else. Who I am is what I want, what I get and what I do. But, I never come to a point and ask “Who am I?” until today and still have not get the answer. That day when they ask to list down our goals, all my goals was to pass ‘N’ level. That is it. That is all my goals for that day. I never ask myself “What’s next? What’s after I pass ‘N’ level?” until today. I do not know what I want to be when I grow up. My mom asks me, every night whenever we have a talk, “Dear, what do you want to be when you grow up?” I never knew the answer. All I could answer was “I don’t know.” Until last night, I told them, I want to get myself involve in Mass Com or Business. I say, “If I get into JC, I’ll go JC and my choice of growing up in JC will end up in business career. And if I get in to Poly, I’ll go poly and take up Mass Com. Either way, I’ll be happy.” They were happy as I answer their everyday questions for the very first time. I was proud. I was proud of myself. Really, I was.
And last night, last night as we sat for the closing ceremony and my parents were there too, it was the moment I will never forget. I cried. I cried till I make my mom cry along. For the very first time, I make my mom cry.
That night, I also realize, who you are outside, sometimes it is not who you are inside. Do not judge a book by its cover. I was happy that both my parents are still alive. I really am.
Everything came to my sense on the 2nd day and I thank Leroy for that. But, Leroy says, if you are going to thank anyone, thank yourself. And as I think about it, he was right. I sat down there strong and shed those tears. I did not leave the room. I was strong to go through it and see myself and my parents in my mind. I was strong to just be there. It was all me. It was my choice to stay. Everything was me, just me. Seriously, that 2nd day, it was the saddest day of my life. But, I am happy for that day to happen. I am going to change now. That is my choice and choices have consequences and you know what, I am ready for those consequences. A lot else happen, but I do not think I will continue/share. But, all I want to say, to everyone reading this,
WHO YOU ARE MAKES A DIFFERENCE.
If you ever have to go for this course, go for it. Trust me, the first day I enter the room, I thought this whole thing was going to be boring. But, I was wrong. It is worth going. That is it.
Remember, WHO YOU ARE MAKES A DIFFERENCE.
One more thing, as last night ended and as I hug those I hugged, as I was going off to bed, in my mind was two other people. And Monday, I want to make a difference by hugging those two. I CAN DO IT. I KNOW I CAN.
